?

Log in

 
 
22 May 2012 @ 12:48 pm
This is a subject line. Yep.  
I've been having a rough time dealing with things lately. My nightmares are back, scaring me awake almost every night, and my moods have been anywhere from LETS DO EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW AND BE AWESOME to RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING JUST BECAUSE IT BREATHES to I can't even be assed to get out of bed im so tired, and ive been crying over nothing, and I hate myself and blah blah blah depressed depressed depressed.

I'm sorry that ive been such a shitty addition to your friends lists lately, guys. I really am.

The good news is that I should be getting a treatment plan in therapy in the next week or so, where they'll probably change my meds and things since I'm just on antidepressants (that arent really working) and should probably be on some mood stabilizers for my bipolar. so. Hopefully everything will start to look a little better.

I did have a little ray of sunshine yesterday when my 9 year old brother sent me a letter and a picture telling me that he loves me and that I should "right bake pleas" <3

Also, im considering putting all of this mental health shit on a filter. So if you would want to be on it, let me know.
 
 
 
(Deleted comment)
Nikkistillandstorm on May 23rd, 2012 06:38 pm (UTC)
Absolutely. :)
Amber: jobros - joey!pandaamberdowny on May 23rd, 2012 02:47 am (UTC)
I wanna be on itttttt. Although presumably I'd know everything anyway...since I...live with you...unless you're gonna be totally psycho and kill me with something...o.O

I love you. Lots and lots and lots and lots. No matter what mood you're in. ♥
Nikki: [★] nick j./nickypandastillandstorm on May 23rd, 2012 06:38 pm (UTC)
I love you the mostest, more than toastest.
Scarlet Diablo: PLUNDERWEARklef on May 23rd, 2012 05:19 am (UTC)
I'd love to be on the filter. I'm trying to figure out if I need to be seeing someone about some things in my life, and reading about other people with (some) similar problems encourages me to do that.
Nikki: [★] taylor s./thumbs upstillandstorm on May 23rd, 2012 06:41 pm (UTC)
I will definitely add you to the filter, bb. Just knowing that my rambling on about things that im having a tough time with makes someone else feel a little better, makes me feel a little more like maybe all of this has meaning.
lizwinlove on May 27th, 2012 10:45 am (UTC)
Put me on the filter. My boyfriend is bipolar and honestly seeing someone go through it is helping me not go postal on him for getting upset over stuff that I don't understand.